I woke up as I expected. I am completely freaked out, but praying constantly - my heart just reaching out to God. "Fasting is one of the most neglected spiritual admonitions." - Dr. Bill Bright, on "Your Personal Guide to Fasting and Prayer". Right there, if fasting is important to God, and my heart is as right about doing it as I can get right now, then God has to keep me going. Ohhhhh, I had a prophetic word spoken to me / over me, at IHOP when I started finding the REAL God, Who is fun and powerful and amazing and funny... God's plan for me is not drudgery, boring work, or horrible. God's plan for me is a supernatural circus, with tents filled with amazing things - she said "with pop corn over here, and cotton candy over there" :) I don't even know what else can be fun, what else could be in those tents... So maybe I will be visiting the other tents for the next FORTY DAYS?!!! I have yet to face that reality, and I really hope that how long to fast comes literally to me out loud or in a dream - but very clearly, or else in a time of weakness, I could cave because someone has a birthday and it would be rude to not eat their cake LOL. I know weakness will also come when I want to tell people what I am doing, or talk too much and have to explain.
God, place me in Your bubble of protection. Help me to see what you want, and do what you want, and remain untouched by things that can hurt me, and our experience....
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