Miraculously amazing things ought to happen today, just because there is no where to go but up and miraculous. Because anything good today would be miraculous. Today is my 15 year anniversary. I couldn't fall asleep because it was hot and I kept dozing and being woken up, until 1:15 this morning. Then for some reason I can't explain, Ken's alarm was set for weekdays 2am, only he had been UP rambling at the kids until 1am, and he was passed out, so I had to climb over his sleeping body to shut it off, so that maybe I could sleep for another 1/2 hour. But then his restless leg syndrome "kicked in" and that was it. I'm working 8 hours soon, then going right to my next job to try to pay some people. By that time, it will be time to shower, and MAYBE nap, but that would be selfish really, because I really should be hanging out with Ken, or doing something nice for him.... before I start picking kids up for youth group. This day has no promise of goodness, because I don't even feel like trying so hard to get happy or find peace in Him, who I know will give peace. Ever feel so angry and grumpy and hopeless, that you decline known relief???? And my stomach is growling. It made noise yesterday and scared me, cause it's been quite silent....
God turned my intense grump into excitement / hyperness somehow... my day at DDs went relatively well, and was extremely busy and slightly chaotic. On my way to the CPA office, Ken had texted and asked me to go for a walk with him. I got very scared it was bad things. I had been sure all morning that we were ignoring our big milestone anniversary and I was grumpy and full of self-pity. He said it was a good walk, and as our plans morphed, we decided to go out for a drink after youth group tonight. I still wasn't looking forward to youth group and Joe offered me the night off, but I was picking up one kid. And after my nap and shower, I was ready for the evening. Our youth group was a small get together, and when I went into the kitchen, there were warm fresh brownies. I turned to jokingly tell Joe off, when he turned the lights on and there were birthday balloons too - 3 of them, attached to a pretty confetti weight. All night, I grinned at them. Joe also said he had planned to stop and get me some good juice. That was sooooooo sweetly thoughtful! We played card games all evening and it was a quiet peaceful night of joking and being silly and bonding. My friend Joy stuck around too.
Another miraculous thing was Isaiah 40:31. Yesterday, my walk was very difficult. I was so without energy I didn't want to pray, let alone move my feet. God gave me that verse and I thought on it a while - thinking it certainly fit my need to finish strong and face the temptation to snack.... This morning, Joe sent just that verse to me, as the first verse he's sent in forever. I immediately appreciated God's repeating the message, telling me it was important, and wondering why. Tonight, Greg posted the verse. Just that verse. And then his wife did. Clearly God has a message and I need to meditate on it harder.
Just LOOK at what God did for me today!!!! I can't even stand how amazing it is!!!!
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