KS - D14 SUFFERING

So I hit day 20 and felt a new lift hit me.  I was halfway and I could do this thing.  But it has been DAYS of intense temptation to quit and not from anywhere but inside me.  I am so hungry.  I am so tired of being so hungry.  And I can't see the point where I would be sad if I quit and soooooooo thankful I made it.  The point where it doesn't make sense to quit, because I'm almost there.  All I can see if that I need to eat.  NOW.  I don't want to move, or do anything but sleep.    I'm so hungry, all I want is to quit.  I read temptation would be strong toward the end, and I prayed it wouldn't be so.  And I didn't think it would be temptation to QUIT.

So, again, God came through for me.  At the end of this, I will give some of the things that have been consistent throughout this fast.  But Each time I need to cave, quit, eat, God sends something, some things to keep me strong.  Tonight I begged for prayers and I think I got them, because I was researching how people stay strong and why they feel so hungry so far into a fast, and I started reading the benefits of fasting again, from a spiritual standpoint.  I lost my desperation to eat, and got joy again in staying strong.  Also, I had an emergency prayer request brought to me that I was SO glad I was fasting for.  I know God is going to do great things because of it.  God gives me purpose in this fast, when I feel like a failure....

I brought home a coffee from Dunkins today.  I forgot a straw, so it came home and into the fridge.  I thought about it all day, but didn't want to get into it.  Tonight, after God fixed things in me, while I was rushing out the door, I decided I wanted to sip a little - to see how it tasted on my tongue and if it did anything to my body.  I sipped so little, it probably doesn't even look different.  But it didn't taste good.  It was bitter and unpleasant.  I will sip more tomorrow, if I want to, but I like that I am thinking hard about how things will taste and what they will do to my body.  I HOPE I stay sensitive to this.  I know it's one of the easiest things to dull...