So I should have been asleep forever ago. I've been tired since it was almost time to leave work. I unwound, caught up on my Bible listening, got something awesome in the mail - it's a small set of questions helping me study the Bible better. Tomorrow, when I'm not supposed to be sleeping, I might type them in, in case someone else wants to know about them. I think they will be very beneficial in learning to study the Bible and get things out of it from God.
Anyway, I finally closed my eyes, started having some good chats with God (OK, me talking AT God, which eventually I'd like to fix), but my mind kept wandering to food. To the boiled dinner I am going to make the day before I stop fasting. Then I'd realize I was literally drooling and NOT falling asleep, even tho my mind was very relaxed and ready to doze off, I'd go back to God, and then it would fall off the God cliff, back to food - to eggs and refried beans with tons of sauteed veggies, Awww crap! Back to God...... Ohhhh it's sooo bad. I couldn't stand it any more and sat back up to reset my mind and try again. Now Ken's cooking frozen burritos. I'm going to drink some V8 and go back to sleep in a bit. Clearly, this is going to be the temptation I face forever. I'm so scared of it. 12 more days of it. God, please get me off of this hook! Well, I'd rather face this temptation than many others that could ruin my life if I caved....
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