Tuesday, June 4, 2013

KS - D6

Yay, another day just about over, and this one was a nice one.  I was back to feeling normal and happy.  I haven't been as close to God the past 2 days as I was the 4 before this, but as I was realizing I hadn't had good God time, and I was at a point where I couldn't solve a work problem at my desk, I folded my hands to my face to rest / regroup / and was thinking God, and had such an urge to pray that when I reached out to God, I got all teary.  I felt so relaxed and glad and wanted to stay in prayer, but I feel very convicted when I do things besides what I was hired to do.  If I need to pray, I do it during the mindless tasks in short spurts all day long.

My boss knew I was doing a "juice diet" because of a talk last week.  When she saw juice in the fridge, she asked if I was still juice dieting, and I said yes.  She wondered for how long and I ended up explaining to her that it was spiritual.  I do not know where she stands with God, but I know that her political stance seems identical to mine.  I guess she's not a Christian, because she hasn't said anything, but she is quite reserved and proper and so, well, she could be.  She's definitely a caring, great person.  She really seemed to understand what I was explaining, and it seemed like I had her respect.  It made me feel good.

I was able to tell my youth pastor "boss" too.  The way conversations have gone with him lately, I was afraid to discuss it with him, but that, too, went REALLY well.  I think he didn't know that sooooo many people do this fast, and many many do it for purely health reasons, not at all with God and for God.  He asked if I was seeing my doctor,  so I told him I'm very healthy (well, not fit, but I've never had any issues at all in life) and that several different people are aware of my fast, and are watching out for me, including my husband, who hasn't said he's all for it, but brings me broth and makes sure I have juice when I wish for it - not that I can't do it myself, but he's very good to me, and serves me often.

Some time ago, a couple of months?  somehow I was introduced to the purpose of a Nazarite and I was interested in it a lot.  I felt compelled to be one - if there was such a thing nowadays...  Last night, in my fasting researching / browsing, I came across a free book called Nazarite DNA by Lou Engel.  I'm listening to it.  I'd rather be reading it, but haven't found a free reading version :)  It gives me a whole new level of being filled with God to research and look forward to as I grow.  I'm excited.  I'm also very excited to curl up and pray myself to sleep.  Soon.  Today I was cold all day.  Not painfully, but I'm dressed warm all cuddled up in bed, about to go to sleep because I get up at 2:45 tomorrow....

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